This Article is From Sep 30, 2021

"Forgive Me": Heart-Wrenching Note Of Actor Soujanya, Who Died By Suicide

A suicide note by Soujanya, signed Savi Madappa, her real name, speaks about problems with her health and work in the industry.

Soujanya left a four-page note explaning her drastic step. It was signed Savi Madappa, her real name.


Kannada television actress Soujanya was on Thursday found dead at her home in Bengaluru. A suicide note left by the 25-year-old, signed Savi Madappa -- her real name -- along with her screen name, speaks about problems with her mental health and not being able to cope.

The actress, a native of Karnataka's Kodagu district but living in Bengaluru, has repeatedly apologised in the four-page note to her parents and other family members and friends.

It seems to have been written over three days, suggesting she was contemplating suicide through this time. There is no indication of her having reached out for help.

"I am only responsible for family, please forgive me...I had promised I'll never do such stupid thing in my life but I had no option. I was totally killed inside. Day by day, I was going so low. I never seen me before like before," the note said.

The Covid lockdown has been tough, like many others, on those working in the television and film industry. Many have been pushed into economic distress and some have spoken about depression.

In January this year, actress and Kannada Bigg Boss contestant Jayasree Ramaiah died by suicide. Last July, the same actress had put up a Facebook post saying she was quitting, but subsequently deleted the post.

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